Au revoir

My adorable black tom cat, the one I’ve been raving about recently as being so smooching and friendly, who used to sit in my lap so very often when I was reading or online…. Passed away last night.

At least the weather had the decency to be cloudy and dark this morning. When Sooty died the sun shone, and it seemed an insult. How dare the sun shine, how dare the world continue to turn, in the absence of the centre of one’s world. Some dead poet wrote a eulogy along similar lines a couple of hundred years or so ago and if I could be bothered I’d search for it.

But not today.

Fortunately a friend had asked us to mind a kitten, who is doing a considerable amount of smooching and purring himself, which is some distraction if not consolation.

Naturally there is all sorts of cognition going on in attempt to avoid becoming too dispondent. Equally as naturally the reconsideration of summary recent events and “if onlys”. But, I lit a gold candle and burnt Myrrh incense to Freya, in thanks for his brief but wonderful life. We had a good year together. Admittedly I bond closely with animals and it’s a substantial blow, but it does feel more like Hagalaz than Isa… so that’s something.

I’m seriously going to miss that little character. He was a real prize.

Bugger.

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Terry Pratchett quotes

Cruising the web today and came across a site, lspace, recording some of Pratchett’s quotes from alt.fan.pratchett… Jeez he’s funny.

It’s an old magical principle — it’s even filtered down into RPG systems — that magic, while taking a lot of effort, can be ‘stored’ — in a staff, for example. No doubt a wizard spends a little time each day charging up his staff, although you go blind if you do it too much, of course.
— (Terry Pratchett, alt.fan.pratchett)

Oh dear, I’m feeling political today. It’s just that it’s dawned on me that ‘zero tolerance’ only seems to mean putting extra police in poor, run-down areas, and not in the Stock Exchange.
— (Terry Pratchett, alt.fan.pratchett)

And one that will sum up most of my life, and may even appear on my tombstone, provided I get a tombstone…

The trouble is that things *never* get better, they just stay the same, only more so.
— (Terry Pratchett, Eric)

The gods of the Disc have never bothered much about judging the souls of the dead, and so people only go to hell if that’s where they believe, in their deepest heart, that they deserve to go. Which they won’t do if they don’t know about it. This explains why it is so important to shoot missionaries on sight.

Moot

Tonight I went to my first Heathen Moot in Melbourne. Though there were only four of us it was a great night! And isn’t that where all great moots start? The rest of the group are involved in a small Garth based in Melbourne.

We met in at the Victoria Hotel and sat around for about an hour chatting about stuff… It was interesting, someone dropped a quiet comment about “no racism” and made me laugh, everything was out in the open then and we were all quite happily non-discriminatory. None of us saw the point in trying to tell the Goddesses and Gods whom they should call or not.

After that it was dinner at a Korean restaurant and a bit of discussion about coming out of xianity or similar and into the openness of Pagan and Heathen spirituality. There was a bit of discussion about runes and about the possible direction of “alternative” spiritualities in Australia… with the observation that a lot of people exploring Paganism and Heathenism these days seem to be fairly young. What tools and ideas are we going to make available for them?

Obviously I’m a big fan of leaving things fairly open so that people can have access to enough reading or experience to satisfy their curiosity and find their own path. It worries me in some circles to see the emergence of a kind of literature that is emotionally provocative, in some cases it sounds like the hellfire and brimstone preaching of christendom. Not something children need to be exposed to in any religion IMHO…

Which leaves us lots more to go on with at the next one :D

Now I know two garths and am really pleased about it. Yay!

Directions

Happy Summer, btw. :D

Well, the past week has been interesting. Following my meditation on the Othala rune, ‘estate’ that can also refer to inheritance, I had some curious experiences. In summary some aspects of my life have been clarified for me. There’s pretty much a grounded sense now about my identity, a feeling of “You Are Here”.

When you shift around a bit between groups and interests you end up being pretty eclectic and also a little compartmentalised. It can be a bit of a challenge to pin yourself down, especially when others seem to have a particular passion, interest or vocation/career that they use as an anchor for their identity… what do us floating eclectic types do?

I find myself back with Ansuz, and Freya. I find myself feeling more certain about who I am and what I do. I find myself accepting the place I’m in and person that I am currently to be an acceptable starting position for moving forward to experience more of life and learn more about the shall we say ‘spiritual options’ available to me.

Not at all what I’d expected from runic studies… No, that’s not quite true, it simply isn’t what was expected of this particular meditation. It has, however, built on the recent transition and growth in a very positive way. Grounding is always useful. Particularly in a post modern consumer world where we’re being pushed and pulled emotionally all over the place by various influences. “Start Here” is kinda helpful. In another way it has completed or at least furthered the answer to questions of meaning that have been lingering and torturing me for quite some time.

It isn’t an attachment to any particular construct or organised system of thought. It does, being runic, fit in my exploration of my new Asatru faith…. and it is as mentioned another constructive step forward. And it is offering a platform for further experience in areas I’d only vaguely trialled previously.

After resolving the meaning question, I guess I kinda expected that so many other areas of my life would fall into place. That hasn’t happened yet, and there’s still plenty of requirement for management and filtering, however there’s some sense and purpose to the whole thing now. Not to mention a future.

Moving forward is always good. This feels very good. Heh, a bit Raidho, really.